call this an emo post... call it whatever you want... but this is one of my darker post... everyday i woke up and i thanked Allah that i'm still alive, still have the chance to do good... i had a fight, a quarrel... i had lost things that i loved and treasured... people had been avoiding me... all these make me realised one thing and decided on a statement...
IF I HAD LOST THE SUPPORT OF MY FAMILY AND LOST ALL OF MY FRIENDSHIP, MY LIFE AS I KNOW IT WILL END..
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:57 pm
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Have you read the page 3 article in the new paper yesterday? Its about how educated people, like a doctor or a principal, keep getting ruder by the years... My guess is its because of their egos and a big case of elitism in Singapore...
e·lit·ism or é·lit·ism
1. The belief that certain persons or members of certain classes or groups deserve favored treatment by virtue of their perceived superiority, as in intellect, social status, or financial resources.
2. a)The sense of entitlement enjoyed by such a group or class.
b)Control, rule, or domination by such a group or class.
The government seemed to protect this "kids" in JC probably due to their high intellect. Yet, this "kids" are migrating and not helping at all in the Singapore economy, they aren't exactly polite nor courteous... An example: A top JC student talked bad about the other races, his punishment? a fine and a written public apology... If an ITE student were to do something like that... I assume that the punishment is harsher as we are tried as a "young adult"... which is sometimes funny lah... if i am doing something good, i'm a teenager, if i'm caught doing bad, i'm tried as a young adult...
There was a time during my time in SCBB, i've worked with RJC and SP as a facilitator for a camp called Youth Avenue... though we had fun... overnight at camp playing poker... debate about certain topics... Made some new friends... My friend who was my Head Of CCAs got the best in something though i'm not sure what... Moshed when West Grand Boulevard jammed it up on stage with Daphne Khoo... It's all fun then RJC decided to pick the "elite" (note the inverted commas) SC ITE Simei just cause their campus is new and bigger than ours and had done something i've just know of, a few months after the camp...
I still remember an episode on the CH5 Debating Competition "The Arena" between RI and UWCSEA regarding elitism... the RI seemed to have a vendetta with the topic... I just told my parents on the night watching that episode... translated from malay to english...
"Alah... with UWC can lah... they dunno shit about the topic as they're a private school... try against ITE ah... see who have a big vendetta about the topic... they're reading from a card... i can tell them off by just standing there..."
I know its like words of a big shot... but its the truth... If only ITE have a debate club, then maybe... just maybe...
regards
Hilmi
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:08 pm
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Came to school early today... 1230 already reached school when the lesson starts at 1300... then had bittersweet news that the DPA test has been postponed to next week I tink... If it is... then next week got 2 tests... wah liao eh... damn sia...
just this afternoon, I finally learned how to do a basic pinch harmonics! It took me more than a year to do... next step... guitar sweeping skills... and please no broom-sweeping-on guitar jokes okay...
today, the major news is all about how the asian market had fallen... i say is this is all the U.S fault... how?
what they are thinking is more on who's their next celebrity president is...
who they will wage war on...
put all their tax money building up their military instead of on education, business and welfare... and they kept bringing up their past especially "Sept 11"...
Who is kissing Britney Spears...
What will Britney do next...
What is new fashion line today...
I remembered a saying from who or where i'm not sure... it goes:
"Oh, how the mighty had fallen..."
Thanx 4 the Organised Chaos...
Bloody Emi
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:34 pm
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Its been more than a week since my last post... my last post about my lost stuffs... boo hoo... well... just found out that for the next 2 weeks there'll be a test for each week... This week will be DPA... can say quite easy... the following week... is gonna be the dreaded CMN... damn sia... the last test I could barely make it... now for some quite good news... my JB house just got ASTRO! I still prefer SCV though... but hey, its lesser of two evils sort of thing...
Just bloghopped to ITE BB Ryzal's Blog... and I can't help but to answer Sabrina's tag about ITE BB's SC being united and all... Its easy...
1)open the SC room everyday...
2)make it known that SC room is open everyday and everybody is welcomed
3)make SC room into a room to hang out, to study in, to have fun.. not only for meetings..
4)let there be food & drinks in the sc room...
5)don't make the exco hang around only with exco... mix together with the normal members...
6)make it a point to drop by the sc room... be it to study in it or to have fun in it...
7)eat breakfast/lunch/dinner together...
8)learn to trust each other... there's no point being united if you can't trust one another...
All of this is what I think could be done so that there'll be camaraderie( dunno if its correct spelling or not) among members... All of this is what I've learnt back in BB, since i've done being an unofficial assistant house comm... hahaha...
Thanx for the organised chaos...
Bloody Emi
posted by: hilmi21 @ 8:12 pm
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2 days of misfortunate events... yesterday, i lost my locker key... den i got my bag, which is inside the locker , stolen... which holds some of my prized and personal possessions... just a message to the I AM GONNA BLEED THE FUCKER WHO STOLE MY FUCKING BAG... I SURE AM GONNA PUNCH YOUR FUCKING FACE... YOU UNDERSTAND ME...
today... early in the morning... i nearly got ran over by a car... i didn't look out for any cars on the road when i am crossing... still on a hangover about the aboved situation i guess... and guess what... the thought of getting ran over thrills my mind... it somehow makes me happy... suicidal thoughts again... dammit...
regards
kasarnova-helminion
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:15 pm
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yesterday got a new timetable for the term... first look at it and all i can say is, it kinda sucks... no more free fridays... :( however... today just got good news... instead of free fridays, most of the class got a free wednesdays instead...
today is kind of fun and exciting... went out early to Vicom near ITE BB with me mates... Inspection and etc... Poor Arse... have to fork out nearly $160 for a new IU unit... Went to lesson straight after that... Met up with hafiz at skool and went to Brickworks for a late lunch... along the way whether from Vicom to skool or from skool to Brickworks or from Brickworks to The Frontier... there's always something exciting on road like seeing a van tipped to the side on a filter lane... getting smoke in your eyes while waiting for the traffic... nearly got hit by a van... speeding after the fucking van... and lots more... hahaha...
well... tonight is actually a new year for all muslims... but knowing most malay youths nowadays, they don't even know it... the islamic calender doesn't follow the christian calender thus the different dates for both Hari Raya(s)... FYI, we, muslims are gonna have 2 new years for 2008, one is on 10 January while the other is in between Christmas and New Year(2009)...
Regards
Kasarnova-Helminion
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:26 pm
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Blaze camp had come and gone... just sad to say that i've forgotten my digicam... di immortales betol... well... made my circle of friends quite a lot larger... winson, farah, nemo, kwang sheng, nicholas(es?), jimmy and lots more... hahaha... the lectures to me are farely boring... i am usually halfway asleep... but at night, we have fun... especially the last night... had fun playing poker with the guys, uno with both girls and guys... walked thru the boardwalk... haiz... if only there is a r&r day where we all could go out somewhere to hv fun instead of getting to "discover" the obvious about the surrounding area... in the bus, a whole lot of people slept "soundly" probably due to fatigue from the last day of training and the overnight adventures... went to boon keng mrt with farah and nemo while alot of people went to novena square to hv lunch... went home alone while trying to be emo... hahaha... went straight to sleep just after my horfun lunch...
fyi, i am interested in 3 girls during the camp, but i just don't hv the courage to make my feelings known... hahaha... see la... getting emo liao...
regards
kasarnova-helminion
posted by: hilmi21 @ 8:01 pm
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