Hari Raya is just round the corner, and finally all the kerje amal have been done and over with... and finally, after almost 2 years of not going, i've stepped foot on Geylang... and so many things have changed... There ain't got no shops selling the tshirts i used to buy, its all the mats fashion nowadays... Cars were being sold almost everywhere... the baju kurung all seemed to be looking rather similar when passing by each individual stall...
followed AK buy sampul duit... den sent a new fren from the east, hisyam home... walked around den off to home and
swensens...
taking train... otw, can't help to think what you're doing and how are you doing 2dae... oh well, i guess i shldn't tink too much... u mite be just another girl whom i liked and admired, somewhat like all the previous crushes and gals i admired b4 u... in the end, it could all became
nothing but another point of hurtful past... but i dun wish to be dat way... i wish i could finally get the gal i've wanted for quite some time...Sorry AK if i like surprised you with my emotions 2dae... can't help it la...
HAPPY 47TH BIRTHDAY DAD!!
HOPE I DIDN'T DISSAPOINT YOU DIS YEAR!
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:33 pm
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I dunno why the song... woke up, switch on my laptop and went to youtube... typed in "too phat" and instantly clicked on "If I die tonight"... go and read up the lyrics... gotten a bit emotional when the last verse kicked in... reminds me of a close fren, who got killed in an accident back when i was still madrasah in Al-Mukminin... Issit 96 or 97 or 98? i can't remember... all i can remember, his death got into the newspapers... for wat reason? I'm not sure either...
R.I.P Asrul Nizam...
speaking of death, Travis Barker is gonna make it from his horrific plane crash... though he will forever be scarred with burns...
Yesterday, went out with AK, Sabby and Azy... went shopping, we guys bought sunglasses, girls bought shoes.. Sabby bought a handbag... i can imagine her looking great with her all white dress, shoes and handbag... After buka at Far East's Cahaya, went to Starbucks near Heeren to discuss some investiture stuff and some internal news... Went home at around 10+... Got some good laughs in the train espescially trying to imulate Azy...
Dear Sabita, please don't worry about my past suspected diabetes as i hv cut down on my sugar intake ever since... Sorry if i make you guys worried and shocked...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:36 am
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Music... we can't live without it... be it hardcore and screaming music or soothing and relaxing music... music revolves around all of us... it moves us... it sets our moods and personality... lately, i've stopped playing my guitar... i don't know why... maybe because of the fasting... maybe because of me going out till late... maybe because i just got bored trying so hard to play songs and live up to people's expectations... i don't know why... so if my band were to read this... pls don't take it in a bad way, i'll be playing my guitar soon... just need someone to inspire me or advise me how to get back playing my guitar again...
well, i've been out for the whole week... so i'm soooo exhausted... went 3 times to T3 with AK(20), Azy(13), Asri & Romzie(19)... so i'm kinda getting sick of going there, though i don't mind going there with certain people... next week, gonna be another week... hahaha...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:17 am
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ever since the 1st day puasa, i've been buka luar je seh... even my mum had been nagging at me to go do terawih... first 2 weeks, study period and exams... den the following weeks, going out with frens and hving some events and meetings... haiyo... dis year nye puase so happening seh...
i am such a bad leader seh... can't rely on completely... but i just can't keep blaming myself... some ppl just don't bother to reply my msgs or take my calls... and it's taking its toll on my hp bill la... and bcos of these ppl, i feel so pathetic at times... so fucked up! now, the 26th sept event is gonna be a big fucking disaster... 3 fucking years of SC and i can't fucking do a fucking decent job... i am so fucked up now la...
Thnks to AK for the contacts and for supporting me. Also thanks to Sabita, Azy and Syamil for the support. Realli appreciate it.
now, i need to buy for myself some clothings and a pair of shoes for Raya... anyone wanna follow me?
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:17 pm
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wat a saturday ytd, went to eunos cc to do some packing for ROW(Ramadhan On Wheels) by 4PM with AK, Azy, Nasri(s), Syamil and Wani... supposed to end at 530 but ended at arnd 615... so me and azy went to the airport to buka puase... had McD again... after which we snapped quite a lot of pics at T3... most of which i snapped... will post the pics soon i hope... i'll be one bz fella starting on tuesday seh... monday will be hving buka puase with a whole lot of SCDR peeps... meetings on tuesday and wednesday... school project and SIN trip on friday... ROW on saturday... friday buat dosa, satuday buat keje amal... baik eh... hahaha...
read abt the "Large Hadron Collider" in the paper.. wat a waste of money... billions of dollars lost just because these scientists wanna noe something dat could end up being just a wild goose chase... billions of dollars that can be put to good use by ending poverty in africa... i guess the investor or investors for this device must be an idiot or a bunch of idiots with a lot of money to invest on something stupid...
AVENGED SEVENFOLD IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!
Date: 24 Oct, 8pm
Venue: Max Pavilion @ Singapore Expo
Ticket Price:
Standard:$95
At The Door: $110
Early Birds Discounts:
16-21 Sept - $75
Limited Student Ticket (After 22nd Sept): $85
anybody wanna go?
posted by: hilmi21 @ 10:34 am
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exams are finally over!! kind of bittersweet feeling actually... the "no more exams" feeling are being dampen by fasting... Yesterday, went home at arnd 3pm with syamil and syazwani (double s) but both of them wanna go creative building to buy MP3 for wani's sister bdae... syamil asks me to join with, was reluctant at first though... ended up wani kind of upset with syamil for asking me to tag along... sori k wani, shld've known better... had a haircut... now my hair is as short as the grass... hahaha... but seriously, it is...
2dae decided to go to skool for fun... i got to the sc rm first followed by azrun, sabri and elroy... played guitar with sabri, played the sushi intro-ed by azrun and teach AK some songs and chords... me and sabri are such poor teachers... hahaha.... Sabby did went by the sc rm for a while with her cute white headband (=P)
went home alone taking 198... thinking about a lot of stuff esp her and the ramadhan events lined up... from keje amal to keje "just for the boys onli"... da dpt pahala den dpt dosa also... aduhai...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 6:40 pm
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"problems, stress and pressure" *verse from Sketch The Faith's Forgotten Predicaments
4 words to sum up what most people whom i know nowadays are feeling..
3 days to D-day..
2 exam modules..
1 me..
will be going to JB tonight! so will be trying to study while being there... will be trying to let go of the internet/msn for 2 nights..
8 Sept: E.Maths 830-1030 Rm2314
10 Sept: Wireless 830-1030 Hall
GD LUCK TO ALL FOR YOUR EXAMS! DO YOUR BEST YEAH!
IF THERE'S EVER GONNA BE SOMETHING THAT'S GONNA CHANGE MY LIFE,
I HOPE ITS GONNA BE YOU
posted by: hilmi21 @ 7:21 pm
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i almost put up another emo entry but after talking to someone about things, just relaxed me up... so i deleted it, am keeping my hopes up for that someone, i'll prove to you one day, sooner than ever...
its been quite a long time since me and AK realli talked, i miss you so much... ask me wat happened... i am not sure.. its like everyting suddenly changed...
i also missed chatting with syamil in msn...
didn't know that my niece, fauziah, was so popular during sec sch in Shuqun that AK & Sabri noes her too... aiyo... the world so small seh... so now its like a few people in dover that noes/hv a relationship with the big Odit family... AK, Sabri, Izan, Fauziah's BF, Faizal, Safari's bandmates. haiyo! can the list go on... yeah maybe...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 12:10 am
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i don't know whether its bcos of the fasting or its just a spur of the moment... but today, i just felt empty... the need for something or someone to feel a gap is much stronger today...
everyday, i just tink of you... but we know, i couldn't be something more... i tink i sound desperate when i am not... but even if someone were to ask me why the desperation, i'll just reply that someone with an empty stare... i need to get my feelings in check... can someone help me with this... i am pathetic and apathetic at the same time...
i need to get away frm the pc and the internet... it had ruined my life somewhat...
i can wait for you, but will you ever change your decision?
posted by: hilmi21 @ 7:05 pm
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