artrock2 had been done and over with... now just worry for exams... i am so not ready for it seh...
saturday's morning kind of a "woozy"... had breakfast earlier than usual with parents... mi rebus... lazat benar... hahaha... then, drove to ITE BB for a while... do some icebreaking games with the whole college west student council... had lunch of chicken rice...
after dat, azy, sabita and me went to arthouse for artrock2... i apologise for this though... a werd to describe artrock2.. plain... no excitement... but dats me... after watching her silent wish, we went to starbucks for a while and den watched blindfold hero before going off to esplanade to meet up with our juniors for a while.. had an "argument" drama between sabby and azy... and i m the "psychiatrist"? wow... hahaha..
had dinner at the usual place, marina square... went home immediately after that... took bus 106.. alight with sabby... WHY YOU LEFT ME WITH TRANSEXUALS IN THE BUSTOP SEH?! hahaha...
tomorrow is the starting of the Ramadhan fasting month... haiyo...
a day to remember, an hour to understand,
what we've done together, we'll remember it as friends
Labels: artrock2, ramadhan 08, sabby and azy argument
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:44 pm
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exams is near...
artrock2 is nearer...
my emotions are getting to me day by day... shld i cherish & love it?
truthfully, i have nvr felt this way before... its undescribable and unknown to me...
maybe bcos of someone or maybe the friends i am always around with...
i dunno what's the reason behind this feeling...
felt like i finally got to know where i belong...
i am happy, i am contented, i dun want dis feeling to ever end...
but knowing life in the hands of God, it'll end someday in someway or another...
tonight, i'll know that the hope i've carried is flourishing...
that alone will makes me smile...
but i won't be so optimistic to take the simplest gesture as something big and extraordinary...
i'll just take it day by day...
poem title: " a good troubled friend"
oh good friend of mine, what is troubling you
we have been there when you need us
and you have been there when we need you
talk to us, confide and don't be upset
smile, laugh and joke, just don't be sad
together, we'll share with you, our tears and our laughter
we love you for who you're, not what you're not
we have our own insecurities and agendas
so i plead to you, oh good friend of mine
tell us what's been troubling you
done by: hilmi
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:51 pm
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issit true that absence makes the heart fonder? my answer would be maybe...
but another question should be asked,
why? why are you missing that person?
is he/she your loved ones?
do you have a fight with him/her that it's been a long time since you've talked/met?
i do miss some people even when i've seen them around.
i missed my late grandmother who had always been there for me with advises, bad or good.
i missed that someone, even if i had contacted you in a way unfavourable for you.
sorry if i sound emo.
but nobody never misses someone. Its a part of life.
ramadhan is coming nearer. some can't wait for it, some loathe about it. for me, i dun mind we're fasting at all, in fact, i am looking forward to it as i wanna test my endurance against food, drink, the weather and my somewhat subsided inner demons.
Its not true, that syaitan & iblis got "locked up" when it is ramadhan.
If syaitan & iblis got "locked up", why are there still crimes and evil being commited all over the world?
its just a metaphor, to "lock up" your inner demons.
all these questions came up while i am writing this entry... hmm... too much thinking la eh... oh well... hahaha...
when are we doing the karaoke/acoustic session/jamming in the sc rm? gotta plan with u guys seh like dat what day... hahaha... isn't dat fun to do? can't believe we cover boybands!! Sabby got sore throat because of singing... tu lah minum bnyk sgt season's ice lemon tea, kan da kene sore throat... but please do take care of your sore throat and yourself... heez.. =P
below are some of the pics me and fazli did while waiting for teacher in the class...
1st time "camwhoring"!! hahaha...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 10:58 pm
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hmm... no updates for 2 whole days? its the starting of busy me hilmi week...
friday had a talk at AMK campus, the ulu campus. regarding some alumni talk... missed 3/4 of it as it started earlier at 230 when it is supposed to start at 3... couldn't concentrate on the talk entirely as we rushed down from Yio Chu Kang Mrt after knowing it start at 230... *shaking head* and also mayb partly bcos of me not sleeping till 4am... after the talk went town to watch fireworks but due to the rain we have to delay our journey from orchard to city hall... we finally did get to town, got a spot at an area near one fullerton... the fireworks had a delayed start at 920-930pm and ended around 20 - 30minutes later... had dad to pick me, Sabita and AK home...
ytd had a bbq at west coast park... met up with AK and Sabita at queensway... thnks for the advice on which belt to buy... ;D again due to the rain, we had to delay our journey to west coast... made it to west coast at arnd 7-8pm.. ate, chat and met up with the liveband and fitness people who helped out with PASA... missed joking arnd with Sharin and Edwin... more post PASA meetings can? went back home at arnd 10pm, took bus 176 to bukit panjang and 180 to JP... Dan is realli a tourist in a bus... hahaha... Thnks Sabby for being concern that i reached home safely... realli touched by it... couldn't sleep the whole night though... had to do my ever ending JCS & wireless project...
chatted to someone... don't worry ok, if anything were to happen to you, i'll always be there for you, and you can talk to me about anything, no worries and sorry if i were too direct about things...
Monday:Calculus test2
Tuesday: Street Soccer
Wednesday: GM & Jogging
Thursday: Project
Saturday: Investiture Training & ARTROCK2
Sunday:RSAF Open House
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:08 am
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i've been meaning to change this blog layout for sometime but i always decide not to... the word "destroy" on the layout is a word i should describe myself... destroy all the doubts, the fears, the insecurities that i had in me... but i just cannot do it... my self-esteem had and have always been very low, no matter what i do and say... i try to puji diri sendiri sometimes... but it will always be something stupid... i try gain attention from people by doing and saying stupid and demeaning things... i have neither a best friend nor an enemy...
as i took the ride home alone, i didn't listen to any music till i reach boon lay mrt... i guess i am trying to do Sabby's fave thing but what i'm doing is very the opposite... instead of thinking nothing, i thought of everything...
each time i cross the road or drive, i would always think, who will visit me if i crashed or get into an accident? will they think of me once in a while when i am out of their lives? what and how is my life now? who will love me for me now? even the answers to this questions get into even more questions... sometimes i wonder how i manage to get through my life right now when everything kinda falls apart...
in truth, i am grateful with what i have and what i am now... and listening to people reading the Quran on TV with my mum somewhat makes me feel good rite now...
To AK & Sabby, I apologise if I didn't say hi or talk to you today, it makes me feel bad... miss you 2 presence around me..
To Sabby, welcome back to school after the "sick" episode yesterday...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:14 pm
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2 days of going back at arnd the same time... 11-12 reached home... with almost the same people sumore
Friday: went school just for JCS, got shocked as project had to be done by this week... got some unbelievable news/story... do the dreaded JCS project at my house... after which proceeded to West Coast Park McD for exco meeting... had dinner over there... discuss some matters... after which went walking around and sat down at a jetty where we talked and joked... A big thanks to Sabri for sending a bunch of us to Jurong East MRT... saw BlindFold Hero joking around at J.E MRT.. went back in a cab with Bear, Ahmad & Keith... got a call from Sabita saying she's in the same bus with John... hahaha... nice kape... donno if its lucky or not, since John didn't notice you, Sabita... :P
Saturday: Went down to Central to support NeverEnding Problems... after which got lunch at McD(again?!).. Acoustic session at Chinatown... Apologies to AK and Blind Meets Mute for not coming down to support... Finished session at 10+, went back by bus service 51... had fun playing the "pointing game" guys... and Jerome, please help me, your team mate, next time... took cab with Bear at J.E MRT... reached home nearly midnight... will be doing my projects overnight... haiz...
Just found out, Sabita is a big fan of my band, Sketch The Faith... Thanks for publicising the gig my band is involved... realli appreciate it... you, my dear, will be getting something from me for this... the poster is as aboved... the date is on 30th August... tix: $7 presale $8 at the door...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 12:53 am
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i noe its kinda late to be doing an entry... its after 1am.. i can't sleep.. so wat the heck yeah... well, 2dae was kinda a wasted day for me except for the meeting though... supposedly no class till 1+.. but my partner couldn't come for the project lesson, so I too not coming for it... hahaha...
had a short PASA appreciation party meeting... sorry AK if I didn't do as I am told since I am quite blur about wat u want.. after which had some nice time talking with AK and Sabby and Syamil... but Syamil went off just as we're talking... yelah ade "meeting" ngan seseorang pe... I totally suck at doing paper roses... then Sabita kepingin bubble tea plak... hahaha... kecian AK, have to repay fasting since Ramadhan is inching nearer... btw, i am an introvert trying to be an extrovert... sorry if i didn't give you 2 the 'peace' handshake just now... forgot ah...
plan to redo wireless project... but just remembered i didn't bring my wireless book... hahaha...
so after getting some movies from Azrun... I watched Step Up 2: The streets at the sc rm... first time I see sc rm like not alot of people coming by... most were like just coming by to say goodbye... I think the damn spoilt air-con got to do with it.. mane la semue jiwa sc rm skrg...
2 days go out of skool with elroy sia...we talked alot... from cigarettes to cca... and pls Sabita, I am not smoking anymore... socially or anyting... unless u wanna count 2nd hand smoke la...
i guess i'll soon be a frequent resident of the sc rm... hmm...
my band, Sketch The Faith, has just change to another genre... we not screamo anymore... we are an alternative pop/rock band...
needs right now
1) a new set of electric guitar string
2) a new guitar strap
3) more cans of Nescafe Latte
4) a life outside of SC and STF
PUBLICITY STUNT ALERT!!!! SKETCH THE FAITH PERFORMING AT THE PLAYDEN, ARTSHOUSE ON 30TH AUGUST... PRESALE TIX($7) AT THE DOOR($8)
posted by: hilmi21 @ 12:52 am
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HAPPY, HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! I just got back from JB yet again.. haha...
8th August:
Got to go to OPA for connect sg... lucky, I am not in the committee or I'll be screaming my head off... realli realli bad planning... kinda lost all the respect for top schools... no co operation at all sia... can see sabita stressed out... she complain why AK so free to msg me... hahaha... me, syamil, hong sheng and azrun helped her out outside when trying to figure out the map and get the people lined up... Sabita ade headache eh... kecian nye... hahaha... went to Bishan with Syamil, Nasri and Sabita... Sabita's debrief was so damn long sia until Nasri had to go off b4 we get to eat... At around 3+, finally get to eat... eat at LJS with Syamil, Sabita & Hadhikah... Went home after that... Joked non stop about me and the mrt tagline "Going to Johor Bahru?"... Hadhikah had one long but always-kena-disturbed sleep... If we were to take a pic.. it'll be a very bad pic of Hadhikah... hahaha... went shopping at JP with Syamil... hahaha...
Sabita and Hadhikah had no idea wat me and Syamil was talking about seh... hahaha... Gd luck figuring it out...
Went to boring JB after Isyak...
9th August:
Slack the whole day on National Day over at my JB house.. done my Wireless project presentation.. watch NDP while eating KFC dinner... Each NDP when they brought up the vid about how Sinapore came to be a metropolis... After Maghrib, sat down with Mum and we did a few paper roses... Gonna be giving it to a few people... Watched "Fight Quest" at Discovery Channel... it is about Brazilian Jiu-Jit-Su.. call me crazy but after watching the show, I start to think of different martial arts for self defence... hahaha..
10th August:
Watch "fight quest" again.. but different martial arts... its about a martial arts street fighting style... got home at about 3-4...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 4:41 pm
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just got back from JB! long time nvr went to my JB home... i'll be heading there yet again for national day... On the way there ytd nite, i slept in the car like nobody's business... once i reached the house, i like one drunk guy trying to climb the stairs... once up there, i slept on my fave sofa... i guess dad quickly put down the mattress cause i find it quite fast after dad woke me to sleep in the room... woke up at 6+ for Subuh and went to sleep again... the time which i woke up again is nearly 10+... nvr done something like that before sia...although i sounded like its a great sleep, the thing is i had taken some cough syrup before going... went shopping at Jusco which is near the JB house today... Mom bought 1 blouse and 2 pants... at the shop, saw a dress which quickly reminds me of Sabby... and i am kinda glad, my mom nvr bought it...hehehe... i bought 12 cans of Nescafe Latte... kinda addicted to it i may add...
had a bad seafood dinner experience though.. ordered tom yam soup, chap chai(for my parents, not me) and ikan bakar... the tom yam and chap chai arrived but the ikan bakar nvr did... got to find out that the guy nvr write it down on our order... i ate the most even though its a simple dinner of 3... gonna get fat again... dunno shld call it depression or not... but that's wat i'll b doing if i'm upset abt something... haiz...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 11:29 pm
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today's family breakfast chat had me thinking... thinking of my future... what and where will i be once i had done NS... poly or work?
if i were to pursue for work, what am i working as and at where?
I so wanted to do something like events management (esp gigs/concerts) recreationally or professionally... like what i believe SC is doing... i dun wanna let go of doing dat, no matter how stressful it is...
i would still like to perform... it doesn't matter if the band makes it big or not... i just wanna perform to a big crowd...
if i were to go poly, what course? i have no idea... still doing electronics engineering or maybe doing sound management i guess...
for my personal life... that's another agenda as a whole... if i were to go poly, den maybe there's hope but if i were to work... den i'll just pray to God everyday i'll meet someone...
being an introvert sucks! hahaha.... changes, changes, changes...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:04 am
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no life... no life... argh!!! back to emo mode again... hahaha... how i sumtimes wish i had someone else life... frens everywhere wanting to hang out/chill with you... my life is boring that i slept in class yet again!
almost getting piss off with my band today... again... haiz... u noe wat... its been a week since i session/jam with them... and everytime i msg him, he ain't replying... wat did i do to deserve this? y r u pissing off with me? r u trying to piss me off? haiz... fuck it... feeling like quiting but i dun wanna... i dun wanna leave the life of a musician... but you two are pushing us away... i felt biased from the way u guys are treating us... fucked up... totally fucked up... can't fucking believe this...
sorry to that someone if i didn't really talk to you and replied ur msg in an undeserving manner...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 9:01 pm
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