Monday, 21 July 2008
i don't feel too good... from my brain to my heart to my body... everything's messed up...
i sometimes feel i'm useless... i'll admit now i have low self-esteem...
i'll ridicule myself up to a point that i don't recognise myself anymore...
i have done sacrifices... big sacrifices...
yet sumtimes i do feel under appreciated even when people praised or thanked me... this is all probably bcos i've been a failure since primary school... i failed my family and my friends in almost everything i've done.. My mom kept reminding me of how i failed her academically and as a person each time i mess things up...
the person i like now isn't responding to me...
why am i that gullible and stupid enough to follow my feelings rather than my head?
i just need to a hint, a simple big hint to cancel that question away...
so please do tell me... someone... anyone...
Again, i have my close friends, Doubt and Fear by my side...
one by one, my friends abandon me...
day by day, i find myself getting further away from the very thing i like most...
and each second, i kept reminding myself of who i am in this world...
no matter how happy i look, i am just not happy with myself...
but not anymore... i planned to change... and i need that someone to help release me from my pathetic low self-esteem and give me the self confidence i duly needed...
posted by: hilmi21 @ 10:57 pm
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