Wednesday, 30 July 2008
today is the first time since my grandma died 2 years ago..
i actually cried for sometime...
dun worry my dear fren, it wasn't bcos of u...
i cried bcos i felt lonely after a long while..
the feeling just overwhelms me...
i was walking home alone... taking the train home alone...
my hp, for the first time since P.A.S.A., rarely had anyone msged or called me...
my friends whether be it in SC or class, hardly notice me doing anything...
so the thought of it makes me feel insecure...
I ain't got no one to talk to...
i ain't got no siblings...
my parents are too busy with the JB house and their jobs to even look or notice me...
my clique is hardly there...
my friends is there, physically but they don't notice any different in me...
my band seems not to be talking to me and is putting me aside...
i know my problems shldn't be of other ppl's prob and so on...
then i realise, my so called life is starting to end... there is no excitement now... just plain boring days ahead... the thought of me not wanting to wake up to a new day is fresh in my mind... i don't think i'll be smiling in a happy way for the rest of the week and maybe for next week...
sorry for the emo moment... can't help it...
(: FUCK IT! I CAN'T DO A FUCKING THING! FUCK MY LIFE! :)
posted by: hilmi21 @ 8:03 pm
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